Tuesday:
Thankful for the quick meetup to watch Jaychou's movie.With the clock ticking, every extra bit of time that I get with you become that much more precious, and I'm glad we finally went to watch my favorite after bugging you for a long time.

Wednesday:
Thankful for spending almost the entire day with you. Thank you for planning the date at ecp, it was fun. My favorite part was lazing around on the hammock with you. You feel safe, and I want you to be my safe haven so badly at this point of time. I love our inside joke, Leonie the explorer and your glistening back. Steamboat after that was really yumz and spending even more time with you at my place after was the cherry on top.

What if one day you don't love me any more?
I hope that day never comes.

Monday:
Thankful for the good time we had in jb, getting to eat good food and having the chance to tell you I love you. I know how rough the past weeks were,and how during those times it was difficult to find joy in being with each other sometimes. It just meant so much to me that we got to spend that half a day together, enjoying each other's company. It was very reassuring, and I'm thankful for that.

We're awkward at times, we haven't got all the things figured out and we're imperfect in so many ways.
Things are messy, circumstances are tough, and the road ahead will still continue to be an uphill battle.
But I like us this way, together, trying to work things out.
Me telling you I really need you now.
And you replying you're not letting me face all these alone.


The past two/three weeks have been a nightmare. The demons of my past that I have to fight are really messing me up. Almost every single time I see you this week ended with me in tears. Sometimes it seems like you're getting the shorter end of the bargain because you need to fix me. But it'll get better, it can only get better.

Happy eight months love.
I love you

Wish you're here so badly.

“Tell him yes. Even if you are dying of fear, even if you are sorry later, because whatever you do, you will be sorry all the rest of your life if you say no.”
Gabriel Garcí­a Márquez, Love in the time of cholera

One of the bravest thing I've done for myself is to say yes to you.
And when I said yes, I agreed to not just fall in love with you, but to also grow in love with you.

i need you more than you think.

B, if you're reading, can we talk? I miss talking and hanging out with my best friend, and right now I could really use a friend.
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Had the most brutal and painfully honest htht last night. Talked alot, cried alot, and the future is still as scary as ever. I know what I signed myself for when I said 'yes', and sure it is nowhere near rational or sane in a cost-benefit-analysis, but I really like you. And I'm not ready to give this up.

I'm gonna be kinda upset and it will def take me some time to be more confident about the nature of our relationship. Love me anyway, will you?

It hasn't been easy. In all honestly, there has been so much doubt and insecurity recently, and it've been really rough for me.
The next couple years ain't gonna be a walk in the park, but still.. I want to do this relationship-commitment thing with you. For a long time.

I want to kiss you
(Even when you annoy me,)
all day endlessly.

I wrote a haiku to declare my love for you, how romantic!
While your pseudo-poem for me only has one line: I love you L.
Silly boy, how do you make me smile so easily?


I know you told me that you'll draw the lines more clearly, but I still can't help but panic a little inside. Please tell me I can trust you. Don't let me down G. Other than that, the past few days was a dream. I love spending time with you, with lots of cuddling in my room cos the haze is stopping us from going out to pah tuo. Reminds me of the good old days in Rice. Why can't you just stay here forever? :(